Good morning starshine the earth says hello!

Currently watching Gossip Girl and drinking Ice Tea.

I realise my blog is very depressing, but this week has been super emotional.

Anyway, I will skip the Thursday drama because I am not capable enough to revist that memory.

Friday was a good day for shopping, got a cute skirt and some amazing brogues, and really cut socks. It did start off pretty crappy though. Spent two hours waiting at the hospital which I HATE, and I have to have an operation which sucks, But after that myself and my mother went shopping and I got a cute sunflower headband, and lovely floral skirt, two pairs of socks and some amazing brogues which are currently glued to my feet.

I think that is all I have to say so Goodbye. 

Day back at school.

First day back.

Ok so the day after we broke up for the holiday's I dyed my hair from a burgondy to what was supposed to be blonde. Now my hair is a ginger blonde colour.

And I don't care what she think but for some reason it still got to me.

Knowing your face makes someone sick everytime they look at you.

Those words just don't ever leave you.

So sorry to steph for not letting you read this I just didn't want you to think I was weak or lame or something like that, Thinking about it now it sounds stupid but some people just don't understand how hurt I am from all the name calling and bullying. I try to put on a front and act all happy but truth is I can't really handle this much pain and dissapointment.

So sorry for the depressingness hopefully this will be jollier tommorow.

Cherio   c:

I doubt anybody will actually read this but this is for myself more then anyone. I really don't care if I don't get any follower's or comment's which I doubt I won't.

Any way I was reading somthing before which was about my friend who I used to have feelings for and all the feelings came flooding back and that was an awful thing I felt. I always do feeling something for this paticular person but things didn't go too well. I never feel accepted in my circle of friends and i really don't think we will keep in contact, I just really need to find that special person I can be myself with. I want to find someone who I can trust and someone who will never let me down, I know I need to move on from that certain person but I just feel so bloody protective over them and its hard to see them with someone else it feels like a punch in my stomach or something like that.

Goodbye for now, im going to try and find myself. Bye

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My first blog ever. Not actually too sure what I am suppose to put here.

Well I'm watching The Only Way Is Essex which is like the

English version of The Hill's and to be honest I think it's rarther sad

because it's like people's lives are fake and I just find it really sad.

I'm not that good at describing myself or telling you about myself becaue I'm not actually quite sure who I am, I'm still trying to figure it out and at the moment I just feel like I can't be myself which is probley why I am so exited to star collage in September because I won't know anyone there and I just really need a fresh start because my High School experience was not that good and I don't have that much confidence in myself anymore which really upsets me becaue in Primary School I was really happy with myself. I am going to stop whining now. See you tommorow.